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Past Lives.
Wednesday, May 8, 2024
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Past Lives has been streaming on Showtime, so I’ll just be here for the next month đź’”

Timing.
Thursday, May 2, 2024

bridgerton

Undeniable chemistry and horrific timing. They love each other.

I’ll just be here for the next two weeks đź’”

Loss.
Thursday, April 25, 2024

I’ve watched all of these TV shows/movies (Fleabag, La La Land, Normal People, and Past Lives) and can honestly say they’ve all made me ugly cry. The only one I didn’t love was La La Land, but this dream sequence was everything, though đź’”

September Love.
Monday, September 4, 2023

lang leav

I love Lang Leav đź’”

Sob Rock.
Friday, July 16, 2021

I want you in the worst way
Is the gate code still your birthday?

John Mayer will forever be my guiltiest pleasure.

Bridgerton.
Thursday, January 21, 2021
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bridgerton - siena and anthony - art of the swoon gif
bridgerton - siena and anthony - art of the swoon gif

If you’re not binging Bridgerton, then I don’t know what you’re doing with your life. Make haste, y’all!

Sick Day.
Tuesday, May 29, 2018

13 reasons why - season 2 - the little girl - clay break up
13 reasons why - season 2 - the little girl - clay break up

BRB binging in bed ✌🏼

The End.
Friday, March 17, 2017

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la la land dream sequence gif
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La La Land was def overhyped, but this dream sequence of what could have been was everything 💔

In the End.
Monday, November 30, 2015

lang leav - in the end

Spoiler Alert.
Monday, November 9, 2015

how to get away with murder - eve rothlow - you still have me and i hate it gif how to get away with murder - eve rothlow - you still have me and i hate it gif

Preach!

I caught up on seven episodes of How to Get Away with Murder with Pammie over the weekend. I’m dying to know what happens next, but I never watch this show by myself because I get too scared. I can’t wait till I’m home for Thanksgiving to find out who shot Annalise, so someone please come over when the new episode airs this Thursday!

Spoiler Alert: There will be frozen salmon from Costco (it’s the only thing I keep stocked in my fridge because holiday weight) and me with no pants on.

Ice Cold.
Sunday, October 25, 2015

our beer is as cold as your ex's heart - wood handcrafted pizza

WARNING: This beer is cold af, you guys (@ Wood Handcrafted Pizza)

Sometimes.
Tuesday, July 14, 2015

sometimes you forgive people simply because you still want them in your life

Penn.
Tuesday, July 14, 2015

orange is the new black - pennsatucky - i don't have rage. i'm just sad.

Same.

Queue.
Sunday, March 15, 2015

I have a growing queue of things I know will make you laugh, and I don’t know where to put them.

A Working List of Things I Will Never Tell You
For So Long.
Monday, March 9, 2015

kurt halsey - for so long i have harbored all of this

Currently.
Saturday, February 14, 2015

ron swanson - there has never been a sadness that can't be cured by breakfast food - parks and rec gif

Stand Up.
Monday, July 28, 2014

The worst thing is watching someone drown and not being able to convince them that they can save themselves by just standing up

Let Go.
Sunday, July 27, 2014

let go or be dragged

Salvation.
Wednesday, May 7, 2014

she imagines him imagining her. this is her salvation.

The Awful Truth.
Wednesday, May 7, 2014

afadthatlastsforever:

“One day, whether you
are 14,
28
or 65

you will stumble upon
someone who will start
a fire in you that cannot die.

However, the saddest,
most awful truth
you will ever come to find—

is they are not always
with whom we spend our lives.”

Fav.
Tuesday, May 6, 2014

There are a million ways to bleed. But you are by far my favorite.

– Iain S. Thomas, The Scars You Love
Futile.
Sunday, March 30, 2014

shadow-writer:

The act of trying to forget someone is a futile one. In order to do so, you are forced to remember. It’s like dieting. Like trying your hardest not to think about food, while weighing every ounce and counting every calorie.

I’m terrible at both.

Get Through.
Friday, February 28, 2014

At home, at weekends or whatever, it wells up and I can’t handle it. But most of the time I can just about handle it, you sort of have to get through the day.

– Paul McCartney
Part of Me.
Thursday, February 27, 2014

katy perry: part of me - crying over russell brand katy perry: part of me - crying over russell brand
katy perry: part of me - crying over russell brand katy perry: part of me - crying over russell brand
Regret.
Monday, February 17, 2014

You can't change what's done, you can't go back in time, you can't try to change the hurt feelings or mend the broken hearts. All you can do is learn from your mistakes, and hope you will never regret anything as much as you do now.

Toxic.
Monday, February 17, 2014

not all toxic people are cruel and uncaring - daniell koepke

Twisted Logic.
Monday, February 17, 2014

twisted logic

Everyday.
Monday, February 17, 2014

i think about you everyday. asshole.

Soft Spot.
Monday, February 3, 2014

soft spot in my heart

Perhaps.
Sunday, February 2, 2014

Perhaps, somewhere, some day, at a less miserable time, we may see each other again.

– Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita
Don’t.
Saturday, February 1, 2014

don't promise when you're happy. don't reply when you're angry. don't decide when you're sad.

Gravity.
Thursday, January 30, 2014

Every morning, I wake up and forget just for a second that it happened. But once my eyes open, it buries me like a landslide of sharp, sad rocks. Once my eyes open, I’m heavy, like there’s too much gravity on my heart.

– Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer
Still.
Wednesday, January 29, 2014

i still love the people i've loved, even if i cross the street to avoid them. - uma thurman, w magazine

The First Time.
Wednesday, January 29, 2014

The first time someone shows you who they are, believe them.

– Maya Angelou
Take.
Wednesday, January 29, 2014

all you do is take, and i've got nothing for you right now. - uptown girls

Deflated.
Tuesday, January 28, 2014

now i feel like you were never here balloon quote

Third Beer.
Monday, January 27, 2014

She was the third beer. Not the first one, which the throat receives with almost tearful gratitude; nor the second, that confirms and extends the pleasure of the first. But the third, the one you drink because it’s there, because it can’t hurt, and because what difference does it make?

– Toni Morrison, Song of Solomon
Nothing Lovely.
Monday, January 27, 2014

there is nothing lovely about having to continuously convince someone to love you

Spilled Milk.
Monday, January 27, 2014

shadow-writer:

I cried today. 

For what we were 
and what we weren’t.

For what we could have been 
and what we could never be.

For what you changed in me 
and for what will never change. 

I cried because I knew you 
and because I never knew you at all.

And because I loved you 
and never got the chance to.

.
Monday, January 20, 2014

i am having a hard time

The Heart.
Saturday, December 28, 2013

shadow-writer:

The heart is
the greediest thing.
It wants
It wants
It wants
No matter what
it already has.
No matter who.
Rule of Thumb.
Monday, November 25, 2013

If people want to let you go, just let them do it. They may not understand who you are. So don’t play around with fire; don’t give them their cake and let them eat it, too. Here is your rule of thumb: they either commit to you or get none of you.

The Heartbreak Hotel: How Long Will You Stay?
Fast Forward.
Wednesday, October 9, 2013

the mindy project - photo me - skank the mindy project - photo me - skank
the mindy project - photo me - skank the mindy project - photo me - skank
the mindy project - photo me - skank the mindy project - photo me - skank
Wolf.
Friday, July 26, 2013

castle - the heart wants what the heart wants castle - the heart wants what the heart wants
castle - the heart wants what the heart wants castle - the heart wants what the heart wants
The First Thing.
Wednesday, May 29, 2013

psychofactz.tumblr.com the first thing on your mind

Disclaimer Questions.
Sunday, May 26, 2013

jessie email

These are obviously in order from least to most important.

Split.
Friday, May 24, 2013

vampire diaries ian somerhalder nina dobrev break up twilight kristen stewart robert pattinson break up

All my favorite vampire couples are breaking up. Nothing lasts forever. Not even the love between immortals. Why even bother setting up an OKCupid profile???

Sea of People.
Thursday, May 23, 2013

in a sea of people, my eyes will always search for you

Caught.
Wednesday, May 8, 2013

friends monica i'm breezy

tessism:

I do try. I’m the one that never calls too often and acts like it’s no sweat. I’m the one that stays busy, a blip here and then there. You won’t find me anywhere too long beyond what is welcome. Right?

Truth is that I am uncool. Goofy when it’s harmless. Frightening when I lose footing. I’m terrified of being seen with my love hanging out.

I know. I’m fooling no one but myself. Everybody knows. Now. I got caught loving, longing, dancing well after the music stopped.

Broken.
Sunday, May 5, 2013

everyone is broken quote

Draining.
Tuesday, April 30, 2013

typewriterseries #42 - tyler knott gregson

Suffering.
Tuesday, April 23, 2013

the root of suffering is attachment - buddha

Madly.
Sunday, April 21, 2013

vampire diaries - madly in love vampire diaries - madly in love

STEFAN: How does anyone ever seem to move on?
CAROLINE: I think that someday, you’ll meet someone new, and you’ll fall madly in love, and you’ll have moved on without even realizing it.

Sonnet XVII.
Tuesday, April 16, 2013

sonnet xvii - i love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret between the shadow and the soul - pablo neruda

They All Float.
Sunday, April 14, 2013

yellowbricks:

Loneliness is lonely. I miss being in love and I miss being loved and I miss belonging to someone and I miss having someone to tell important things to and I worry that my missing those things will affect the choices I make and get me into trouble and I worry that I’ll forever feel like a dust mote floating around without anywhere to settle.
Freely.
Thursday, April 11, 2013

tyler knott typewriter series

You’ve Got Mail.
Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Kathleen Kelly: [in an email to Joe Fox] The odd thing about this form of communication is that you're more likely to talk about nothing than something. But I just want to say that all this nothing has meant more to me than so many somethings. - You've Got Mail

Living & Shit.
Monday, April 1, 2013

hey remember that person you thought you couldn't live without? well look at you living and shit

From the voice of reason ♥
#notyouanthony

Shitty.
Saturday, March 23, 2013

girls - hannah horvath - i just want somoene who wants to hang out all the time, and thinks i'm the best person in the world, and wants to have sex with only me. you're charming. i really care about you. and i don't want to anymore because it feels too shitty for me. so i'm gonna leave.
girls - hannah horvath - i just want somoene who wants to hang out all the time, and thinks i'm the best person in the world, and wants to have sex with only me. you're charming. i really care about you. and i don't want to anymore because it feels too shitty for me. so i'm gonna leave.

Girls = new obsession.

Worthwhile.
Tuesday, March 19, 2013

don't waste your precious breath explaining you are worthwhile

For my sad bears, drunk bears, and #whyareweevenhere bears…
The right person won’t need convincing.

Courage.
Thursday, March 7, 2013

have enough courage to trust love one more time - maya angelou

Nahhh, I’m good…

Truth.
Friday, February 22, 2013

scandal stolen moments olivia pope

You have nothing. You have a pile of secrets and lies, and you’re calling it love. And in the meantime, you’re letting your whole life pass you by while they raise children, and celebrate anniversaries, and grow old together. You’re frozen in time. You’re holding your breath. You’re a statue waiting for something that’s never going to happen. Living for stolen moments… you keep telling yourself they all add up to something real, because in your mind they have to, but they don’t. They won’t. They never will, because stolen moments aren’t a life. So you have nothing. You have no one.

– Olivia Pope, Scandal
Feelings.
Friday, February 15, 2013

valentine's day text message

This is pretty much how the rest of my day went.

I don’t want normal and easy and simple.
Friday, February 8, 2013

scandal olivia fitz olitz edison - I don’t want normal and easy and simple. I want painful, difficult, devastating, life-changing, extraordinary love. scandal olivia fitz olitz edison - I don’t want normal and easy and simple. I want painful, difficult, devastating, life-changing, extraordinary love.
scandal olivia fitz olitz edison - I don’t want normal and easy and simple. I want painful, difficult, devastating, life-changing, extraordinary love. scandal olivia fitz olitz edison - I don’t want normal and easy and simple. I want painful, difficult, devastating, life-changing, extraordinary love.

#thisiswhyimsingle

Waiting.
Friday, February 8, 2013

scandal - olivia be like waiting for fitz - olitz

BRB dying.

Impulsive.
Tuesday, February 5, 2013

new girl impulsive cece nick new girl impulsive cece nick
new girl impulsive cece nick new girl impulsive cece nick
Homesick.
Monday, February 4, 2013

the avett brothers homesick

Scandal.
Thursday, January 17, 2013

scandal rose garden scandal rose garden
scandal rose garden scandal rose garden

OLIVIA: I wait for you. I watch for you. My whole life is you. I can’t breathe because I’m waiting for you. You own me, you control me, I belong to you…

FITZ: You own me! You control me. I belong to you. You think I don’t want to be a better man? You think that I don’t want to dedicate myself to my marriage? You don’t think I want to be honorable? To be the man you voted for? I love you. I’m in love with you. You’re the love of my life. My every feeling is controlled by the look on your face. I can’t breathe without you. I can’t sleep without you. I wait for you, I watch for you. I exist for you. If I could escape all of this and run away with you? There’s no Sally and Thomas here. You’re nobody’s victim, Liv. I belong to you. We’re in this together.

I stayed home from work for a couple of days this week… partly because I have the flu, but mostly because I wanted to catch up on Scandal!

I may be a little late to this party, but how awesome is this show???

The Splash.
Wednesday, October 31, 2012

tyler knott gregson typewriter series

Absence.
Friday, September 28, 2012

tyler knott typewriter series #181 absence

I Will Wait.
Monday, August 27, 2012

Mumford & Sons – I Will Wait

And I will wait
I will wait for you

Elsewhere.
Tuesday, August 14, 2012

But I believe good things happen everyday. I believe good things happen even when bad things happen. And I believe on a happy day like today, we can still feel a little sad. That’s life, isn’t it?

– Gabrielle Zevin, Elsewhere
Celeste and Jesse Forever.
Sunday, August 12, 2012

kristen bell crying gif so many feels

Souvenir Shop.
Monday, August 6, 2012

everything is illuminated movie - the collector

You are a souvenir shop, where he goes to remember how much people miss him when he is gone.

R.I.P. Robsten.
Wednesday, July 25, 2012

kristen stewart cheated on rob pattinson

At least we still have Kimye.

Alive and Unfinished.
Thursday, July 19, 2012

heartworm, n.
a relationship or friendship that you can’t get out of your head, which you thought had faded long ago but is still somehow alive and unfinished, like an abandoned campsite whose smoldering embers still have the power to start a forest fire.

Happiness.
Tuesday, July 17, 2012

don't let your happiness depend on something you may lose - c.s. lewis

I’m doing it wrong.

Almost.
Wednesday, July 11, 2012

you and me and never us; a complicated series of almost interactions

Surviving.
Monday, July 9, 2012

All or nothing was bullshit. It never worked out that way. Life was all about taking what you could get when you could get it and surviving when it wasn’t enough.

– Maya Banks
Spill.
Friday, June 29, 2012

tyler knott typewriter series

Hooked.
Monday, June 18, 2012

himym hooked i just can't be with you right now

ROBIN: She’s got you on the hook.
TED: What? I’m not on the hook.
ROBIN: Ted, “right now” is the classic on-the-hook catchphrase.
MARSHALL: Yup. “Right now” paints a picture of some sort of magical future time when everything will work out, but the truth is, that will never happen.
ROBIN: You like having Henrietta around for the same reason that Tiffany likes having you around—it’s a nice little ego boost. She’s stringing you along. She’s not committing to you, but she’s keeping you around just in case, like an old can of chili in the pantry.

Um, who’s buying canned chili and not eating it immediately???

Dream.
Friday, June 15, 2012

you were in my dream last night and i kissed you right on your goddamn face

Tough.
Monday, June 11, 2012

how i met your mother - the rebound girl - it gets pretty tough

Barnito Supreme speaks the truth.

Desire.
Wednesday, May 30, 2012

i desire the things which will destroy me in the end - sylvia plath
You can’t save a damsel if she loves her distress…

White Fang.
Wednesday, May 9, 2012

new girl white fang new girl white fang
new girl white fang new girl white fang
Passion.
Friday, May 4, 2012

new girl passion

RUSSELL: Look, Jess, I’ve already done the crazy, explosive passion thing. When I was with Ouli, it was like edging closer and closer to a wood chipper… I’m not looking for that anymore.
JESS: I understand. But I am. And I want passion. Even if it’s harder and hurts more.

Fingers Crossed.
Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Is it just me, or does everyone else’s room get a little dusty whenever they watch google chrome commercials?

Open Flame.
Wednesday, April 11, 2012

we're all drawn to the warmth of a true connection, but don't stand too close to an open flame; someone will surely get burned. - revenge

The Wrong Place.
Sunday, April 8, 2012

Via Slowly, But Shirley:

the office stress relief pam

He said that you told him how much you love me.

About how you feel when I walk in a room.

About how you’ve never doubted for a second that I’m the woman you want to spend the rest of your life with.

And I guess he had never felt that way with my mom, even at their best.

There’s usually a scene in all my favorite shows that never fails to get me all choked up… like this scene from The Office where they explain how Jim’s feelings about Pam is what caused Pam’s dad to decide to leave her mom. Sometimes getting a taste of how things should be makes you realize you’re in the wrong place…

Unfinished.
Wednesday, March 21, 2012

unfinished himym

ROBIN: I am never going to have closure. Okay, closure doesn’t exist. It just… ended. And, no matter how much I try to forget that it happened, it will have never not happened. Don and I will always be a loose end. We will always be—

TED: Unfinished. GaudĂ­, to his credit, never gave up on his dream. But that’s not usually how it goes. Most of the time it’s just too difficult, too expensive, too scary. It’s only once you’ve stopped that you realize how hard it is to start again, so you force yourself not to want it. But it’s always there. And until you finish it, it will always be…

Charlotte Sometimes.
Monday, February 20, 2012

Charlotte Sometimes is on The Voice! Waves & The Both Of Us got me through some shit with Il Postino years ago! So excited to see her on the show. Now I have a reason to watch besides Adam Levine’s beard (as if that wasn’t reason enough).

Charlotte Sometimes – Pilot
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Charlotte Sometimes – Pilot.mp3]

And when I say that you should stay
Remember what I’m drinking’s cheap
And I’m a pilot and I am steering deep

The problem is…
Wednesday, November 16, 2011

the problem is you're never all that far - ache in my heart

Let’s rewind.
Monday, October 17, 2011

goldspot - let's rewind - how i met your mother - asking you to stay the words are finally here

Goldspot – Rewind
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/GoldSpot – Rewind.mp3]

Edge of Desire.
Thursday, September 8, 2011

john mayer - edge of desire - there i just said it i'm scared you'll forget about me

Drama Club.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011

hello september

Quote of the day:

If they will do it with you, they will do it to you.

Dinner with friends turned into an emergency girl boy session at Station Tavern last night. Afterward, I polished off an entire bottle of wine by myself like I was the one hurting! Or… like it was just another Tuesday. Ha.

August was a tough month for love! Hello, September. I hope you’re amazeballs.

Amas Veritas.
Saturday, August 27, 2011

amas veritas practical magic spell

The universe is obvi confused about what we want, judging by the excessive amount of emergency girl sessions, tears and vino consumed this past month. So the girls and I wrote our own letters to the universe last night and lit that shit on fire.

We were enjoying some sangria afterward when the man at the neighboring fire pit offered us some brisket. Was the universe answering my letter already? Maybe I should have been more specific when I said I wanted more meat in my life!

The hitch.
Thursday, August 4, 2011

Ubiquitous, adj.

When it’s going well, the fact of it is everywhere. It’s there in the song that shuffles into your ears. It’s there in the book you’re reading. It’s there on the shelves of the store as you reach for a towel and forget about the towel. It’s there as you open the door. As you stare off into the subway, it’s what you’re looking at. You wear it on the inside of your hat. It lines your pockets. It’s the temperature.

The hitch, of course, is that when it’s going badly, it’s in all the same places.

– David Levithan, The Lover’s Dictionary
Nostalgia.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011

nostalgia

Mistake.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011

‘It was a mistake,’ you said. But the cruel thing was, it felt like the mistake was mine, for trusting you.

– David Levithan
Re: Stacks.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Bon Iver – Re: Stacks
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Bon Iver – Re Stacks.mp3]

Everything that happens from now on
This is pouring rain
This is paralyzed

You were having a shitty day at work today, so I shared my favorite Bon Iver song with you to make you feel better. And then I found out what you did. Now every time I hear this song, I’ll be reminded of the exact moment you lost me as a friend.

Friends.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011

friends - i'm sorry did my back hurt your knife?

Nothing a bottle of sauv blanc can’t fix… especially when you’re drinking it with your REAL girlfriends.

Risk.
Tuesday, July 19, 2011

the risk i took was calculated, but man am i bad at math

488.
Saturday, July 16, 2011

500 days of summer

TOM: Why’d you dance with me?
SUMMER: ‘Cause I wanted to.
TOM: You just do what you want, don’t you?

Bottled away.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011

the past

The Limit to your Love.
Saturday, June 25, 2011

Clouds part
Just to give us a little sun
There’s a limit to your love

What if.
Friday, June 24, 2011

you will always be my biggest what if

Ashes & Wine.
Friday, June 24, 2011

A Fine Frenzy – Ashes & Wine
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/A Fine Frenzy – Ashes And Wine.mp3]

Is there a chance
A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel
A reason to fight

Laugh, cry and everything in between.
Monday, May 9, 2011

I’ve read your entire blog from beginning to end and it made me laugh, cry and everything in between. When I was reading I kept thinking, you’re so honest and you’re not afraid to say what you feel. If I ever bump into you on the streets of SD I would totally give you a big hug and say, Thank you!

Cat T.

Holy balls! Beginning to end??? When I started this blog in 2003, all I talked about was concerts, food and my boyfriend. 8 years later, I’m still blogging about concerts, food and my (now ex) boyfriends! Some things never change…

I feel like I lead a different life on the interwebs, because IRL I’m not this candid. Here, I’m not afraid to admit that I still think about you without feeling like a total idiot… Maybe you’ll read it, but most likely you won’t. It’s easier to say these things when you think that no one is listening.

If you were able to identify with anything I’ve written these past 8 years, then I’m glad you found my blog 🙂

Somewhere only we know.
Saturday, May 7, 2011

The Warblers – Somewhere Only We Know (Keane Cover)
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Glee – Somewhere Only We Know.mp3]

And if you have a minute why don’t we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know
This could be the end of everything
So why don’t we go somewhere only we know

The Lover’s Dictionary.
Friday, May 6, 2011

the lover's dictionary david levithan

dispel, v.
It was the way you said, “I have something to tell you.” I could feel the magic drain from the room.

The Lover’s Dictionary, David Levithan
Fantasy.
Monday, March 28, 2011

ugly betty - grin and bear it - 2x04 - henry and betty

HENRY: I didn’t want to tell you, because as long as you didn’t know, there was still… I don’t know… some fantasy where you and I could be together.
BETTY: Sometimes we want things to be different. We think maybe if we pretend that they are… fool people… that’s enough. But it never is.

I have a habit of getting addicted to shows after they’ve already been canceled. And I hate when they say, “To be continued…” at the end of an episode, because even when it’s past my bedtime, I have to continue.

Someone Like You.
Sunday, February 13, 2011

Adele – Someone Like You (Live Acoustic)
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Adele – Someone Like You (Live Acoustic).mp3]

I heard that you’re settled down
That you found a girl and you’re married now
I heard that your dreams came true
Guess she gave you things I didn’t give to you

Absurd.
Monday, January 24, 2011

The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are absurd; the longing for impossible things, precisely because they are impossible; nostalgia for what never was; the desire for what could have been; regret over not being someone else; dissatisfaction with the world’s existence. All these half-tones of the soul’s consciousness create in us a painful landscape, an eternal sunset of what we are.

– Fernando Pessoa
Blue Valentine.
Friday, January 7, 2011

Can’t wait to watch Blue Valentine tonight with the girls!

The Only Exception.
Monday, September 27, 2010

Glee Cast – The Only Exception (Paramore Cover)
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Glee Cast – The Only Exception.mp3]

I’ve got a tight grip on reality
But I can’t let go of what’s in front of me here
I know you’re leaving in the morning when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it’s not a dream

One of my favorite songs covered by one of my favorite TV shows ♥

The only thing.
Monday, August 23, 2010

the only thing that makes it a part of your life is that you keep thinking about it

(image via plastic-sfoonss)

At some point.
Saturday, July 24, 2010

there isn't a day that goes by where i don't at some point think of you

A brief moment of insanity.
Thursday, July 8, 2010

Sometimes when you look back on a situation, you realize it wasn’t all you thought it was. Someone walked into your life, you fell in love, or did you? Maybe it was only a childish infatuation, or maybe it was a brief moment of insanity.

The BFF told me about Il Postino’s new girlfriend today, and I felt nothing. It’s funny how I always used to find myself running back to him, for some reason, thinking it would work out differently the second third fourth fifth time. And now, I can’t think of a single reason why I’d ever want him back.

No matter what.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010

when the past comes knocking

As it was.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010

lipstick stained coffee

Since the first day you reached out to me, I kept searching for hints of the relationship you kept from me. I couldn’t see it in the description of your morning routine or your weekend recaps, but I could feel it in your absent admission to the contrary. I planned to keep quiet and let this fade out, as I do with everything else I feel isn’t worth fighting for. But this was you. And to me, you have always been worth it. So I finally got up the nerve to say,

Are you seeing anyone?

I knew the answer before I even asked the question. I should have asked you this in the beginning, but I convinced myself that you wouldn’t hide something like that from me. Except you did. And while you justified it by not doing anything more than correspond back and forth, the line was already crossed when you first contacted me, and you’ve been on the other side of it ever since.

At least I know that you didn’t just dismiss me as some reckless fling you had when we were younger. I can’t be mad at you for wanting to talk to me, but what was the point of this, other than resurrecting all these memories I haven’t thought about in years? It’s like you just came back to remind me that you still can’t do this. Even if you didn’t know what you were looking to get out of this in the beginning, you made the choice not to tell me about her for months. What did you want from me?

You and I will always have some unfinished business, but eventually, it’ll be as it was. You’ll forget about me. I’ll forget about you.

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