You’ll be the saddest part of meA part of me that will never be mineIt’s obviousTonight is gonna be the loneliest
I do a lot of things by myself and it usually doesn’t bother me—I live alone, go grocery shopping alone, go to John Mayer concerts alone LOL.
I flew by myself once on Valentine’s Day, and when I was already seated, the flight attendant was like, ‘Are you flying alone?’ I was like, ‘Uh, yes’ and he was like, ‘Do you mind sitting over here so this couple can sit together?’ I’m like, ‘First of all, yes, I mind, and second of all, it’s a fucking 45-minute flight. I think they can manage sitting apart from each other for an hour.’ JK, I totally moved, but only because I was in a middle seat and I was promised a window seat 😆
Over the weekend, I had dinner with my sister and her husband + the bestie’s family for her daughter’s 21st birthday. There was 9 of us total, so 8 of them got the chef’s special (soup, a shared appetizer and an entree). You can only order the chef’s special in pairs, and I was the odd man out as usual, so I just ordered off the regular menu.
Last night, I had a pair of tickets to finally see Chino at The Observatory North Park, but I couldn’t find anyone who wanted to go with me. Usually I’d rally and go by myself, but it was a Sunday night, and I had to drive back up to LA after. I work from home, so I could’ve stayed in SD, but I like working in my underwear being in my own space.
I remember when Shi’s husband was talking to my sister’s husband at a party, taking in the craziness around him, and he was like, ‘I wished I met Shi sooner. So I could have had all this with her longer.’ When we told Shi what he had said, she was like, ‘He could’ve had all this sooner!’ 🤣 She liked him for years before he asked her out. Years, y’all. He just wasn’t ready yet.
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Anyway, my life is not a movie, and I’ve come to terms with the fact that it may not be in the cards for me. I’d rather be alone than be with someone who treats me like shit or someone mediocre who doesn’t light my heart on fire ✌🏼
Actual footage of me waiting for the lion 😅💀
You have all my tears this morning, love…
And ps. I still picture myself slamming my fist in the table screaming, “YEARS, motha fucker!”
December 10th, 2024 | #
the audacity! 😆
i still can’t believe you’ve never seen cal cry. i cried this morning watching this dog video on instagram 😅
December 12th, 2024 | #
I told cal that i told u guys ive never seen him cry…and he was like, “i think i cried when my grandpa died”. And i was like, “one, so heartless that u dont even remember the last time u cried. And two, ur grandpa died long before i even knew u existed, so i still havent seen u cry with my own eyes” lol. Ridics.
I stay up late and watch random shit on youtube. I literally cry every night before going to sleep watching some random thing. My most recent ig post. It’s only 3 pics of miles and kc and jojo…and i was straight ugly, shoulders shaking crying over it. Again…ridics.
Lastly, is that dog vid supposed to be sad? The one who was sad in the winter but happy when the sun came out? I finished the vid saying im glad he got some sun! Cal just told me about something he read in the news about some guy in mira mesa being killed by his dogs. Now thats somethin to cry about! Lolol
December 13th, 2024 | #
he thinks he cried when his grandpa died years before he met you??? i def cried when all my grandparents died. i even remember crying at my mom’s coworker’s son’s funeral, and i didn’t even know him. it was just so sad. i mean, i cried watching this video yesterday of andy grammer singing his song from five feet apart with this kids’ choir yesterday 😂
yes, that dog vid is supposed to be sad! he has cancer 😭 i follow a lot of animals on IG, and every time one of them passes, i ugly cry
yikes. i just googled about that mira mesa mauling. his three dogs attacked him at the park and killed him. but i didn’t cry about it 😆
have you seen @kevinsquishmallow? he’s such a sweet boy. if you’re ugly crying over a post of 3 pics of miles set to kc and jojo, this account will def make you emotional 😅
December 14th, 2024 | #
Oh totally. I know cry at most funerals I go to. Never matters if i was close to the person or if im just there to support someone. It’s too easy for me to put myself in people’s shoes and imagine if i lost anyone in my family…i always have tissues in my pocket.
I havent watched 5ft apart…but that kid choir is excellent!
Oh i didnt know the dog had cancer! Fuck cancer!
Goodness…how cute is Kevin?!
December 15th, 2024 | #
my mom’s coworker’s son died when he had a brain aneurysm at the borders you helped me cut wedding invitations at! it was sudden and he was a little older than us at the time (in college). i just remember being a blubbering mess crying over this stranger.
omg you have to watch five feet apart! justin baldoni directed it. i told christine about it after we watched it ends with us in the theater, and she watched it the same day so was crying all day that day 😅 it’s def a tearjerker, if it’s not streaming somewhere, i’ll download it for you to watch next time i see you.
yeah, the dog has cancer and the owner hasn’t posted anything in months, so i’m worried he passed 😭 i follow this other account @mini_robomuppets where this spider died and was a mess 😅
kevin is sooo cute 🥰
December 15th, 2024 | #