The Weeknd – Wicked Games

Just let me motherfucking love you

I’m pretty sure I just got pregnant from this song.

Ticket purchased.
Vacation days requested.
Spotify playlist made.
Is it August yet???

After working twelve hours of overtime yesterday, I deliriously spent the rest of my night listening to the new Strokes album and watching pole dancing videos on YouTube with this clown.

City and Colour – Of Space and Time

I don’t know what drugs to take
To successfully alter the state
That my mind has been in as of late
Something is eating away at my brain

New album = new tour! I love me some Dallas Green.

Um, of course my #choking playlist has Young the Giant on it… as does my workout playlist and my baby makin’ playlist. Just kidding. (I don’t have a workout playlist.)

The Waitresses – Christmas Wrapping

Two Door Cinema Club – Sleep Alone

And I don’t know
If in the morning I will be here and if so
Let it be known
That I was worthy
I was worthy
I was worthy
I was…

And I want you
I want you
I still do

80s dance party at The Observatory with Walk the Moon!

Mumford & Sons – Winter Winds

And my head told my heart
Let love grow
But my heart told my head
This time no, this time no

Loved, loved, loved.

Mumford & Sons – White Blank Page

You desired my attention but denied my affections

Shi came up to have lunch with me and watch 500 Days of Summer at Santa Monica Pier last night! LA doesn’t feel like home to me yet, but it felt like home when she was here ♥

The Temper Trap – Sweet Disposition

Imagine Dragons with Pammie at The Observatory ♥

I’ve always wanted to A) watch a show at Red Rocks and B) see Mumford and Sons live… Someday I’ll do both (just not any day soon). Mumford announced their one show in LA this year, and it just happens to be the day of my sister’s wedding! Boo whore.

Mumford & Sons – I Will Wait

And I will wait
I will wait for you

Mr. Little Jeans – Rescue Song (RAC Remix)

Dessert and drinks at D Bar followed by an encore of Celeste and Jesse Forever with the original Celeste and Jesse Chel and Anthony last night!

When Anthony texted that he was waiting for us in the second row, far left, he meant in the theater that was actually showing the movie, and not the one that Chel and I were sitting in for five minutes before we realized that what we were in the wrong theater! Ha. We always seem to get lost when we’re together…

When I got into work this morning, Jesse had me watch this video of the Miami Dolphins cheerleaders lip syncing to ‘Call Me Maybe’ in bikinis.

I immediately regretted everything I ate this past weekend in life and cried into my bowl of oatmeal. With ground flaxseed. And two splendas.

I had my camera in one hand and my Texas-sized maple bacon donut in the other! Um, best day evs. More videos of Young the Giant at the OC Fair here.

Private acoustic show with Imagine Dragons at The Griffin last night! Thanks, Jessie ♥

More videos here.

Walk the Moon – Fixin’

Are you fixin’ to come with me?
Are you fixin’ to fix me?

Young the Giant has been on constant rotation in my car for over a year now. I’m not particularly proud of it (that’s a lie). And I want you to know, it ends right here (also a lie).

On the drive to work this morning, I tried listening to the radio for a change. While flipping through stations, I heard songs by P.M. Dawn, Sir Mix-A-Lot, Mary J. Blige, TLC… Is it 1992? Am I back in the fifth grade? Did I just leave a note in David Krzywicki’s desk telling him that I think he’s cute???

If I wanted to hear 90s music, I’d listen to Shi’s “current” playlist! Ha.

P.M. Dawn – Set Adrift On Memory Bliss

And I want you
I want you
I still do

Mark Duplass – Big Machine (Acoustic Version)
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Mark Duplass – Big Machine (Acoustic Version).mp3]

Maybe I’m wrong and all that you get is what you see
Maybe I’m right and there’s something out there to believe

My summer soundtrack ♥

Update (6/9): For those of you who asked—and by ‘those of you’ I mean ANTHONY, and by ‘asked’ I mean demanded—you can download all the songs from this playlist here. Enjoy, my lovelies!

Christine, Jessie and I got naked and famous at SPF 94/9 in Oceanside last night!

I was too busy shaking my sandy parts to record anything during Santigold, but she was def the highlight of my night! Here’s a vid of her performing in the OC:

Imagine Dragons – Demons
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Imagine Dragons – Demons.mp3]

They say it’s what you make
I say it’s up to fate
It’s woven in my soul
I need to let you go

Firecrackers in the east, my car parked south
Your hands on my cheeks, your shoulder in my mouth
I was up against the wall on the west mezzanine
We rattle this town, we rattle this scene
Oh, Anna Sun

That awkward moment when you realize you were listening to Taylor Swift when your private session timed out on Spotify.

All that I know is I don’t know how to be someone you miss

Dat F sharp.

The Dear Hunter – Home
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/10-the_dear_hunter-home.mp3]

I was listening to FM 94/9 broadcast live from Coachella on the drive home from work today when I heard The Dear Hunter for the first time and thought… why am I not at Coachella again???

I think it’s partly because I thought Outside Lands would have a similar lineup, but mostly because I don’t like camping outdoors and not showering for three days.

Hotel next year, anyone?

I’ve eased up on the concerts lately to save money for that trip to Outside Lands! Now that I’m not going anymore, I regret not buying tickets to see Jason Mraz & Christina Perri. They still have tickets available, but none of them are in the pit!

There are two things you should know about me:

1. I don’t do nosebleeds.
2. I always find a way to score awesome seats. Even if I have to sleep outside a Ritmo Latino to get them. Just kidding. I haven’t done that since I was 17.

Christina Perri feat. Jason Mraz – Distance

How long can we keep this up, up, up?
And I keep waiting…

After Bonnaroo, Lollapalooza and Coachella announced similar (amazing!) lineups, I was sure Outside Lands would follow suit. Never have twelve syllables hurt me so much to say, but NOT EVEN YOUNG THE GIANT COULD SAVE THIS LINEUP! I should have went to Coachella. At least I would have seen Radiohead. And Tupac’s hologram. Boo whore.

In other news, Incubus and Linkin Park are touring together, and their last show is here in SD! My 19-year-old self is punching the air in excitement.

Justin Bieber – Boyfriend
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Justin Bieber – Boyfriend.mp3]

Glass Pear – Eyes Wide Open
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Glass Pear – Eyes Wide Open.mp3]

Don’t you, don’t you let go
Tell me it’s not too late

I had happy hour at The Prado at Balboa Park last night! We enjoyed margaritas and live music by Trent Hancock. The highlight of my night was when he asked for song requests and hand to god, someone suggested Hoobastank (and it wasn’t me!). The lowlight was parking down the street on 6th and trekking to the restaurant because I didn’t want the valet attendant to see my secret shame! Ha.

The Perishers – Sway
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/The Perishers – Sway.mp3]

Charlotte Sometimes is on The Voice! Waves & The Both Of Us got me through some shit with Il Postino years ago! So excited to see her on the show. Now I have a reason to watch besides Adam Levine’s beard (as if that wasn’t reason enough).

Charlotte Sometimes – Pilot
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Charlotte Sometimes – Pilot.mp3]

And when I say that you should stay
Remember what I’m drinking’s cheap
And I’m a pilot and I am steering deep

Do the things I wanna do
Not the ones I’m supposed to
Why can’t I get close to the better side of me
When I was young

Young the Giant debuted some new songs last night at Soma and this was my favorite…

Rusted Root – Send Me On My Way
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Rusted Root – Send Me On My Way.mp3]
Thanks to this week’s episode of New Girl for my new ringtone! Expect to see these dance moves every time I get a text message…

Crosses – Prurient

I see you wanna taste
But don’t wanna wreck your life
I think you know the game
So go ahead and take a bite

Chino ♥

Greg Laswell – This Woman’s Work

Give me these moments back
Give them back to me

Sleeping At Last – Turning Page

I’ve waited a hundred years
But I’d wait a million more for you
Nothing prepared me for
What the privilege of being yours would do

I may or may not have cried during this scene when I watched it for the first time at the theater on Friday. And again when I watched it on Saturday. And a third time while watching the bootleg I just downloaded today.

It was a Saturday night, so I was in bed eating beef ribs from Phil’s BBQ when Christine called me and said that Diplo was having a free show downtown for the America’s Cup World Series. I’ve had this weird crush on Diplo ever since I saw him in that Blackberry commercial, so I finished my ribs got ready and was out the door by 7:30.

I had dessert and drinks with Christine at Karl Strauss, walked to the harbor, fist pumped to Diplo’s set, met up with Jessie, had one too many mules at El Dorado, ate late night tamales at La Fachada, and got home at three in the morning.

Today, I woke up with a headache and a half eaten burrito next to my face.

Boys, try not to fall in love with me.

So please don’t come to me on my dying day
Just let me go in peace
With all the things that I forgot to say
Racing through my mind

Sold out City and Colour show with Jessie and the hipsters last night! Is it just me, or does Dallas Green’s voice fix things in the universe?

City and Colour – Northern Wind
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/City and Colour – The Northern Wind.mp3]

Oh, my love, you don’t know what you do to me

Goldspot – Rewind
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/GoldSpot – Rewind.mp3]

Life’s too short to even care at all…

I’ve had Young the Giant’s In the Open Sessions on rotation all summer, but I’m pretty sure I’ll still be listening to them this fall. And next winter. And when I’m on social security.

Young the Giant – In the Open Sessions

1. Strings
2. Typhoon
3. Guns Out
4. Every Little Thing
5. Apartment
6. West Virginia
7. Cough Syrup
8. I Got
9. Your Side
10. God Made Man
11. Islands

Come on, skinny love, just last the year…

After the Bon Iver show last night, Jessie and I met up with Shi, Christine and Antonio at The Local and drank away our sorrows till last call. And then we ate our feelings at Lucha Libre. And then we went home alone and cried ourselves to sleep.

If there’s no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I’ll follow you into the dark

Three days of live music wasn’t enough for us, so Jessie and I kept the party going in SD last night at the Death Cab for Cutie show.

Now we’re both sick, and Jess is worried about the half marathon she’s supposed to run this Sunday, while I’m worried about not being able to taste the celebratory beer we’ll both be drinking after she crosses the finish line! Ha. Priorities…

Children wake up
Hold your mistake up
Before they turn the summer into dust

Last day / last band / last song at Outside Lands!

The Joy Formidable – Whirring
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/The Joy Formidable – Whirring.mp3]

I had pizza and beer with Jessie, Shi and Anthony at Pizza Port before heading to The Joy Formidable‘s sold out show at the Belly Up tonight! Anthony was worried that Jessie and I were gonna ditch him for these boys who were supposed to buy Jessie’s extra tickets, but I think we were more worried that Anthony was gonna ditch us for Mike, some guy we had just met at the show who works for Stone Brewing Co. and loves craft beer (like Anthony), plays the drums (like Anthony) for the band Sweet Ever After, and just happens to have the same exact phone as Anthony. When Anthony found out that Mike home brews, his panties fell off and their bromance became official. I mean, am I gonna have to fight Anthony for him???

Quote of the night:

I need to find a new job… one where I can be home by five and drunk by six like you bitches.

I’m actually home by 5:30… but I’m still drunk by six :p

Sooner or later, this is bound to stop
Come on, let’s savor what we’re falling for

Incubus – In the Company of Wolves
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Incubus – In The Company Of Wolves.mp3]

In the company of wolves I sat in silence

Get out your guns, it’s time to start a fight
Whoa, and it won’t take too long
I want to make it right

Bon Iver – Re: Stacks
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Bon Iver – Re Stacks.mp3]

Everything that happens from now on
This is pouring rain
This is paralyzed

You were having a shitty day at work today, so I shared my favorite Bon Iver song with you to make you feel better. And then I found out what you did. Now every time I hear this song, I’ll be reminded of the exact moment you lost me as a friend.

Maroon 5 & Train with Pammie last night! Adam and his beard def didn’t disappoint.

Maroon 5 – If I Fell (The Beatles Cover)
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Maroon 5 – If I Fell _The Beatles Cover.mp3]

The Jakes – Shake My Hand
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/The Jakes – Shake My Hand.mp3]

‘Cause I’m way down deep in the dirt
But oh, baby, I make the best of the hurt
Don’t wait for me
My life ain’t worth your worry

Keane – A Bad Dream
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Keane – A Bad Dream.mp3]

I wake up, it’s a bad dream, no one on my side
I was fighting, but I just feel too tired to be fighting
Guess I’m not the fighting kind

The Jakes – Take Me Home
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/The Jakes – Take Me Home.mp3]

Your back is straight
Don’t let hurt curve it that way

I’m a little bit obsessed with this band.

Incubus – Promises, Promises
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Incubus – Promises Promises.mp3]

Now you see me, now you don’t
Oh, how well you disappear
What are you running from
And may I interfere

Come over here with your heart
And I will love your heart with mine

I don’t know what a plage is, but I want to go to there.

Clouds part
Just to give us a little sun
There’s a limit to your love

A Fine Frenzy – Ashes & Wine
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/A Fine Frenzy – Ashes And Wine.mp3]

Is there a chance
A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel
A reason to fight

I don’t know what I love more—that Shi thought The Script was a font and not a band, or that my friends all know about my love affair with typography.

After an exhausting day of marathon running and sign holding, Jessie, Christine, and I hit up FM 94/9‘s Independence Jam in Oceanside and enjoyed some music and beer at the beach!

Band of Skulls – Light of the Morning
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Band of Skulls – Light of the Morning.mp3]

This week, the girls and I kicked off our summer of music with Lauryn Hill at Humphrey’s by the Bay! Then Errol and Aimee gave me their extra VIP tickets to Channel 933’s Summer Kickoff because they know I love free booze, free food, free concerts, and most importantly, that young chico Pitbull 😉

Can’t wait for these upcoming shows:

• 5/28: Prince @ The Forum
• 5/29: Glee @ Valley View Casino Center
• 6/5: FM 94/9 Independence Jam @ Oceanside Pier
• 6/6: Adele @ The Greek
• 6/11: Mayer Hawthorne / Bruno Mars @ Del Mar Fair
• 6/22: Neon Trees @ Del Mar Fair
• 6/28: Musiq @ Belly Up
• 7/8: Rocky Votolato @ The Casbah
• 7/22: Maroon 5 @ Cricket Wireless
• 8/12-8/14: Outside Lands Festival @ Golden Gate Park
• 8/16: Death Cab For Cutie @ UCSD Rimac Arena

I’m kind of a concert whore.

The Warblers – Somewhere Only We Know (Keane Cover)
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Glee – Somewhere Only We Know.mp3]

And if you have a minute why don’t we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know
This could be the end of everything
So why don’t we go somewhere only we know

I’ve been fighting a cold since Monday, and the only cure is more concerts! Every weekend in June is now officially booked. FM/949 Independence Jam, Adele, Neon Trees, Mayer Hawthorne/Bruno Mars, Del Mar Fair, Vegas… Is it summer yet???

Monster Ball with the bestie last night! Gaga is one crazy ass bitch, and I love her for it. Yes, I’m a little monster, and I’ll be one until she shanks someone dear to my heart. What of it?

Lady Gaga – No Way
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Lady%20Gaga-No%20Way.mp3]

Goapele at Anthology last night with my faves ♥

Linkin Park is only following 28 people on Twitter, and I’m one of them! (Yes, they’re probably only following me to DM me about their contest I won that I didn’t even know I was entering when I checked into their show on Foursquare, but still!)

Now who do I have to bone to get @joelmchale to follow me?

The last time I saw Linkin Park was on their Meteora tour in 2004 from the nosebleed section. Tonight, I got to see Mike Shinoda’s handsome face from ten feet away in the pit! My favorite performance was of One Step Closer, the first Linkin Park song I ever heard. Definitely takes me back!

Adele – Someone Like You (Live Acoustic)
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Adele – Someone Like You (Live Acoustic).mp3]

I heard that you’re settled down
That you found a girl and you’re married now
I heard that your dreams came true
Guess she gave you things I didn’t give to you

My fave performance of the night! 30 Seconds to Mars is easily one of the top five bands I’ve seen live.

Penny & The Quarters – You and Me
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Penny and the Quarters – You and Me.mp3]

I started my birthday week how I usually do—with a good cry and a hot bearded fellow (in this case, Ryan Gosling).

I would not be mad if this kid fell out of my uterus. If watching this video doesn’t fill your heart with joy, then you are dead to me.

I’m sick in bed and googling pictures of kittens while listening to country music. I’m like an old white lady. Except I’m twenty something. And Asian. And hardly a lady, depending on who you ask.

Fiiiiiinally checked Neon Trees off my concert bucket list! More videos here.

Zooey & Conan & Christmas ♥

Neon Trees – Wish List
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Neon Trees – Wish List.mp3]

The girls and I are doing a gift exchange via Elfster this year. Gifts in our collective wish list include: red tights (not footless), San Diego Chargers hipster panties, an Aveda gift card, and Kid Rainen from the Jabbawockeez.

(I’m pretty sure the latter exceeds our previously agreed upon $30 limit, Chris!)

Oh, Jordan Catalano. I’d let you make out with me in the boiler room, even though you’d just ignore me at the Buffalo Tom show afterward. I can’t wait to see you on my birthday!

Linkin Park – Waiting For The End
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Linkin Park – Waiting For The End.mp3]

Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It’s hard to let you go

Broken Social Scene – 7/4 (Shoreline)
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Broken Social Scene – 7-4 Shoreline.mp3]

Craft & Commerce & Casbah with Jessie last night. She’s an old friend, but my newest concert buddy!

We met up at Craft & Commerce in Little Italy for dinner and drinks. Our bartender, Frank, was truly a man after my own heart. From his plaid button down shirt with his rolled up sleeves, to his mustache, to the artful way he shook those cocktails with such conviction… I don’t normally like mustaches when they aren’t accompanied by a beard, but I think I can make an exception this time. Jessie and I shared the Mother’s Ruin punch bowl. It’s supposed to serve four, but the two of us drank it for dinner. Jessie called it “Frank’s punch,” but Frank told us that his punch packs a bigger bite! Yeah, that’s pretty much when my panties fell off. We were so full off of drinks that we barely touched our appetizers. Jessie had the bacon-wrapped corn dogs, while I ordered my newest obsession, Devils on Horseback (applewood bacon-wrapped dates stuffed with cheese). C&C is home to bacon-wrapped deliciousness, and they even have ice cream sandwiches with candied bacon in it. Def not your typical bar fare!

A corn dog and a couple of dates weren’t enough to soak up all that alcohol, so we walked our drunk asses nine blocks to the Casbah to see Blind Pilot. Even though we were surrounded by freakishly tall hipsters sipping PBR and blocking our view, I really enjoyed the music and spending time with an old friend.

Glee Cast – The Only Exception (Paramore Cover)
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Glee Cast – The Only Exception.mp3]

I’ve got a tight grip on reality
But I can’t let go of what’s in front of me here
I know you’re leaving in the morning when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it’s not a dream

One of my favorite songs covered by one of my favorite TV shows ♥

View from the floor at my third Muse concert last night. It was epic! Muse confetti balloons are pretty much my favorite thing in the world.

Muse – Stockholm Syndrome
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/muse – stockholm syndrome.mp3]

This is the last time I’ll abandon you
And this is the last time I’ll forget you
I wish I could

Happy hour with the girls at Analog before the Phoenix show at SDSU tonight. We all had tall boys and totchos (nachos with tots instead of chips!) to start. I wanted to get something different this time, so I went with the Dirty Sanchez (grilled cheese with jalapenos and bacon). What was once my favorite move is now my favorite sandwich! Just kidding. (It’s not my favorite sandwich.)

Phoenix was amazeballs. Thomas Mars sang a French lullaby to me. And 4,600 others. But mostly just me.

“Rome” was def my fave performance:
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Phoenix – Rome.mp3]

Always and forever more
We’re together dead and lonely
I thought I couldn’t do this without you
Single in his bed somewhere
Ashes still it fall, fall, falls

MUSE TOMORROW!!!

Anberlin – Impossible
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Anberlin – Impossible.mp3]

Take what you want from me
It means nothing now
Take everything from me
It means nothing now
Not so easy to forgive, harder to forget
Take what you want

KNGDM – Heartache
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/KNGDM – Heartache.mp3]

Let me remind you that we just keepin’ it movement
And you should do the same and just keep it moving

Download “The Goodbye Mixtape” here for free!

Meaghan Smith – Here Comes Your Man
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Meaghan Smith – Here Comes Your Man.mp3]

I just won a signed copy of Meaghan Smith’s latest record, The Cricket’s Orchestra! I’ve been of fan of hers ever since she covered the Pixies’ Here Comes Your Man on the 500 Days of Summer soundtrack. She picked three random winners from her email subscription list, and I was one of them! I didn’t even know she was having a contest! I’ve never won anything in my life… What a great way to kick off my weekend 🙂

Vegas tomorrow!

Lit – Miserable
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Lit – Miserable.mp3]

You make me come
You make me complete
You make me completely miserable

I heard this song on the way to the gym this morning, and it reminded me of high school. I’m not sure what’s more shocking—that this song came out over ten years ago, or that I went to the gym this morning?

Don’t answer that.

Brandon Boyd – Courage and Control
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/courageandcontrol.mp3]

It’s time to let your hair down
And give yourself permission
It takes courage and control
But you start by letting go

OneRepublic – Say (All I Need)
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/onerepublic – say all i need.mp3]

Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong
But nothing’s turned out how you want it

OneRepublic + the fair with my faves after work. Is it 5:30 yet???

Drake (feat. Jhene) – July
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Drake – July.mp3]

They always say the hottest love has the coldest end

Yowza.

You guys are so obsessed with sports, you wear jerseys for teams you’re not even on. But you think you’re on the team, you’ll be like, “Yeah, last night we just didn’t score enough. We just didn’t play enough defense.” We? The Lakers don’t need you. That’s like me watching Grey’s Anatomy in scrubs, but then after the show is over, being like, “Man, we just could not save that guy.”

That being said, I really thought that we were going to win regionals tonight. I knew I should’ve worn my sequin dress during the season finale of Glee.

Glee Cast – To Sir, With Love
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/Glee Cast – To Sir With Love.mp3]

The Postal Service – The District Sleeps Alone Tonight
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/The Postal Service – The District Sleeps Alone Tonight.mp3]

A stranger with your door key
Explaining that I’m just visiting
And I am finally seeing
Why I was the one worth leaving

You can’t talk, I’m anxious
I’m off the walls, I’m right here just
Come outside, and see it
But pack your heart, you might need it

Julian Casablancas – Glass
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/julian casablancas – glass.mp3]

I don’t believe it
I won’t believe it
I’m not sad
I understand
That’s how it goes

I’m in love with the Strokes, but I’m not really into Julian Casablancas’ solo album. I do love this one song, however. I’d love it more if he sang it acoustic. In my bedroom. With no pants on.

Neon Trees – Sins of My Youth

Call me crazy, I was born to make a mess
Would you love me still if I were to confess
That I had a little too much fun back when I was young
I’ve got these habits that I cannot break
And as I’m older there is more at stake
Go ahead and call me fake, but these are the sins
The sins of my youth

Phoenix – Lisztomania
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/phoenix – lisztomania.mp3]

Let’s go slowly, discouraged
We’ll burn the pictures instead
When it’s all over we can barely discuss
For one minute only, not with the fortunate only
Thought it could have been something else

This song always puts me in a good mood 🙂

Don’t say a word, just come over and lie here with me
‘Cause I’m just about to set fire to everything I see
I want you so bad I’ll go back on the things I believe
There I just said it, I’m scared you’ll forget about me

I don’t care what people say
The rush is worth the price I pay
I get so high when you’re with me
But crash and crave you when you leave

I really hate myself for liking this song.

Sold out Temper Trap show at the Belly Up tonight! Can’t wait to hear them live.

Sweet disposition
Never too soon
Oh, reckless abandon
Like no one’s watching you

Weezer – (If You’re Wondering If I Want You To) I Want You To
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/weezer-iwantyouto.mp3]

If you’re wondering if I want you to
I want you to
So make a move
‘Cause I ain’t got all night

Nasty wake up call this morning (and not the good kind, either). It was way too early on a Sunday for all that bitching. I would love to just take a drive along the coast and listen to my summer playlist, but it’s cloudy outside, barely sixty degrees, and oh yeah, my driver’s license is still suspended. Boo whore.

Anyway, on with the playlist:

1. The Kooks – She Moves In Her Own Way
2. Vampire Weekend – Campus
3. Phoenix – 1901
4. Franz Ferdinand – No You Girls
5. Weezer – (If You’re Wondering If I Want You To) I Want You To
6. Neon Trees – Animal
7. The Strokes – You Only Live Once
8. Cake – Let Me Go
9. Modest Mouse – Float On
10. Arctic Monkeys – I Bet You Look Good On The Dance Floor
11. Kings of Leon – Four Kicks
12. Phantom Planet – Big Brat
13. Hot Hot Heat – Goodnight Goodnight

Listen to the full playlist here.

Lil Wayne + The Office
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Count Choculitis?
Why did you write that down, Jim?
Is it because you know I love Count Chocula?

Oh, oh, I want some more
Oh, oh, what are you waiting for?
Take a bite of my heart tonight

Today felt like summer, so I wore a dress. It’s kind of a big deal, considering my mid-winter legs hadn’t felt a razor since mid-February. This heat wave isn’t supposed to last, so tomorrow’s outfit will be business as usual… I’m really getting a lot of mileage out of those yoga pants.

If this 90° weather wasn’t enough of a tease, I have the perfect song to put you in the mood for summer:

Nujabes – “Arurian Dance”
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Doesn’t it make you want to swim naked in the ocean?

Yeah, me neither.

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And it wears me out
It wears me out

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I just downloaded Sade’s new album, Soldier of Love. I’m not sure which iTunes playlist to file it under—Baby Makin’ Music or Sad Times? Conundrum!

By Your Side is still my all-time favorite Sade song. I’ve known it was going to be my wedding song since the first time I heard it in 2000. Ten years later, I’m still not married I haven’t changed my mind.

When you’re on the outside baby and you can’t get in
I will show you you’re so much better than you know
When you’re lost and you’re alone and you cant get back again
I will find you darling and I will bring you home

I forgot how much I loved this song until I heard it again watching Ray and Chubbs play Guitar Hero World Tour. Enjoy.

Coldplay – “Shiver”
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/shiver.mp3]

From the moment I wake to the moment I sleep
I’ll be there by your side just you try and stop me
I’ll be waiting in line just to see if you care
Oh, did you want me to change?
Well, I changed for good
And I want you to know that you’ll always get your way
I wanted to say…
Don’t you shiver?

SpongeBob SquarePants – “Don’t be a Jerk (It’s Christmas)”
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/spongebobxmas.mp3]

Don’t be a jerk, it’s Christmas!
When others are talking, never interrupt
Don’t put people down or leave the toilet seat up
It’s the time for family and holly and turkey
‘Tis the season to be jolly, not jerky

Things just keep going. We didn’t talk about anything heavy or light. We were just there together. And that was enough.

Il Postino and I dated on and off until he broke my heart last winter. He didn’t talk to me for eight months afterwards. He brought a new girl home for Thanksgiving. And the past two times he has contacted me, she just happened to be out of town.

But when I’m with him, I can’t seem to remember any of that.

He took me to see the meteor shower late last night. He picked me up at my apartment and we carried on as if those gaps between our visits didn’t exist. We got to the beach and were literally the only ones there. Maybe the weekend rain had scared everyone off. We lay the blanket on the sand under a patch of sky that wasn’t covered in clouds and waited… I was cozy in his jacket and gloves, with my head resting on his pillow. Michael Jackson songs played on his iPhone while we talked about the movies we had last seen—something we always used to do together. He told me I would like “Leap Year.” I overlooked that he had seen all of these movies with someone else. He said he would be satisfied if he saw twenty-six shooting stars and asked me how much I’d be happy with. I told him that I couldn’t think of a number, but I would just know when the time came. Being there with him was enough for me. I counted thirteen shooting stars and made a handful of wishes before we left. It started raining on the drive home. We both had work in the morning. I didn’t expect him to stay, but he stayed. I noticed that he always sleeps on the right side of the bed. He reached for my hand and closed his fingers over mine. I asked him if he was seeing anyone. He said that he wasn’t. That they were just friends. That they were never a couple. I wanted to believe him. We talked about why I was moving. We talked about his family. He said that his youngest sister has been mad at him since he moved out. I told him that she just misses him. I fell asleep to the rise and fall of his chest as he slept. He stayed with me till morning. And then he left.

If he wanted to be with me right now, he would be with me. I can’t keep putting my life on hold every time he decides to make a cameo. His appearances aren’t without expectations, and I find myself searching for hidden meanings behind his every word and action. I think he doesn’t want to lose me… but he doesn’t want to keep me, either.

Rihanna – “Stupid in Love”
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/stupidinlove.mp3]

They’re telling me let go
He is not the one
I thought I saw your potential
Guess that’s what made me dumb

Cinematic Orchestra – To Build A Home
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‘Cause I built a home for you, for me
Until it disappeared from me, from you

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John Legend – “Everybody Knows”
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And I hope one day you’ll see nobody has it easy
I still can’t believe you found somebody new
But I wish you the best… I guess

Lykke Li – “Possibility”
[audio:http://www.mayanrocks.com/blog/possibility.mp3]

So tell me when you hear my heart stop
You’re the only who knows
Tell me when you hear my silence
There’s a possibility I wouldn’t know

Don’t call me past 11pm
It won’t happen again
It happened once
It happened twice
It happened three times
Maybe four times
Maybe five times
Maybe, maybe it happened six times
But it won’t happen a seventh time

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How do I slow down?
I can’t relate to my heart now
I’ve thrown what I’ve known
Is enough of me out?
I’m running on empty
I’ve gotta find some way
To fumble right through this new heartache
It’s torn me apart
Oh, lovesick mistake
Turn me away

I went to see Erin McCarley at Soma last night with Chel and Shi. I think she is so amazingly talented and underrated. She reminds me of one of my favorite Stella Im Hultberg paintings, Until the Day—beautiful, but painfully sad.

Don’t repeat chapters; the ending of the story will never change.